Archive for the ‘Brain Dump’ Category

Words from the Heart   53 comments

I know I’ve been a lot quieter than usual.  The truth is that this post has been sitting in my drafts folder for almost two weeks, and every time that I pull it up to try to put my current thoughts into words I stumble, not quite sure what to say. The truth is that I’m really struggling with WoW right now, a lot. And I’ve been spending a whole lot of time asking myself what I should do – what happens when you start to fall out of love with something that has been a defining aspect of your life for so long?

I think part of the reason that I’ve been putting it off is because I wasn’t sure if my thoughts are directly related to my time in game or if they are being colored by a plethora of other things happening in my life right now – and the truth is that I’m still not sure. While I do think that some of what I’m feeling with regards to WoW right now is my life bleeding in, I also think that it has only highlighted feelings that were already there – not creating new ones.

Where to start? I think I’ve laid out my love affair with WoW previously – so maybe I should talk about the bumps in the road.  I suppose since I’m being honest, they feel more like giant mountains right now than bumps. Giant mountains that I’m not entirely sure I am capable of scaling. Read the rest of this entry »

Posted December 27, 2011 by Beruthiel in Brain Dump

How to Fix Archeology   17 comments

I’ve spent a fair bit of time this expansion doing nothing but flying around and digging in the dirt.  In fact, there have been entire weekends when I’ll sit down in front of an NCIS marathon on TV and dig for hours on end…every day.  I have dug until I have found myself literally asleep at the keyboard and putting myself to bed.  Every so often I’ll come to my senses and say “fuck this bullshit” and give up on Archeology.  I think of all the time wasted, and all of the fun things I’d rather be doing – like washing my hair.

I’m sure there is someone out there reading that is thinking “if you hate it, why do you even do it”.  Well, I’m glad you asked (even if it was internal!).  I first started doing Archeology because one of our early Best in Slot trinkets, Tyrande’s Favorite Doll, came from the profession.  And as a raider, who wants to be as prepared as possible for content, I felt obligated to go farm the damn thing.  And so I dug and dug and dug.   Lo and behold, my last Night Elf discovery was Tyrande’s damn doll.  I wore that doll up until I got my Shard of Woe, it was that good.  In our early raids (before druids got buffed), I was getting enviable amounts of mana return from that one trinket. 

I suppose I could say it was “worth it” – but the fun factor was pretty much in the red.  Every time I came across a dig site that wasn’t Night Elf I was more frustrated with how I was having to waste my valuable time flying all the way down to Tanaris and Un’goro, only to have to make the five plus minute flight back north for the Night Elf site that would spawn next.  Sure, I made use of things like Jaina’s Locket (fast trip to Tanaris every hour) and Teleport:Moonglade.  But that only made things mildly less tedious. Read the rest of this entry »

Rock Bottom   23 comments

Today I’m going to share a few things with you, not all of them pretty.  The first of those things is that I’m a total consumer of trashy gossip magazines. And TV shows of similar ilk.  I’m not sure I should tell you how many times I’ve had a subscription to People or that I’m considering snagging the e-publication version as we speak (don’t judge me!), I swear I buy them for the articles!  And if E! has a True Hollywood Story on, you can bet I’m glued to the TV.  Ok, ok, I’ll come clean – the same is true for any Behind the Music or Top 100 (insert something here) countdown.  (Seriously, don’t judge!).

Anyhow, I have a point.  Lest someone feel the need to advise my that my incredibly shallow taste in entertainment is…well, incredibly shallow (hint: I’m aware), I suppose I should probably get to it.

The other night I was watching a countdown of the 40 Most Shocking Moments.  And one of the top ten moments was Britney Spears’ public meltdown – maybe it was even in the top three, I don’t remember now. But you know the one I’m talking about; the one where she shaved her head, completely fell apart and lost custody of her kids. Now in the commentary they actually had some people who were rooting for Britney talk about her meltdown, as opposed to the I’ve-never-heard-of-you-before comic tossing out jabs that is the norm.  And one of the things that they said about her was that it was that moment she hit rock bottom.  That in every crisis, there has to be a rock bottom.  And once you’ve finally hit it you can start your climb back up.

Well, folks, I hit rock bottom. Read the rest of this entry »

Posted November 16, 2011 by Beruthiel in Brain Dump, Raid Leadership

Monday Musings – Almost There Edition   5 comments

It’s been awhile since I’ve done an update, but that’s partly because I don’t know how much there is to update. In the game not a ton has changed. I mean, some things have, but mostly things are the same. However, there are a few things that I’d like to say, and I figure this is as good a place as any to say them.

I Love My Guild
As I often tell the guild, this is something I don’t think I say enough. So I’m going to just say it. I have the privilege to raid with a group of people that for the most part I genuinely enjoy spending time with. Maybe some of them stand in the fire more than I’d like, but as a whole there is no one in my guild that I just can’t stand. And I believe that is a pretty rare thing.

Why am I telling you this?

Well, it’s kind of two fold. Firstly, anytime I use my blog as a brain dump/stress relief/dear diary therapy I invariably get that one comment about how maybe I need a break, or need to find a different community for my raid time. I’m just going to put it out here: I don’t. One of the reasons I started this blog was to get thing out of my head. To put my stress in a medium that isn’t me screaming at my raid.

And you know what? It’s worked. I’m a significantly calmer raid leader because I have a venue where I can dump my thoughts and stresses, and where I can get feedback (or commiserate) on the struggles that I may be facing. I’m pretty open about everything that happens, and I like that. So, I wanted to let people know that I really do love where I am and the people I am with.
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Posted October 31, 2011 by Beruthiel in Brain Dump, Deep Thoughts, Hard Modes, Raiding

Tuesd…eh, screw it, some shit about my week.   12 comments

I feel that I should start this post off with a warning.  I am incredibly tired right now, and as such I anticipate that this post is likely to be a little on the rambly side.  Why am I so tired, you may be wondering?  Well, partly because I made the grave mistake last night of starting Glee Season 2 after watching Friday’s episode of Fringe.  I thought I would be OK.  But then the Britney episode came on, and it was all down hill from there.  Three hours later (and way past my bedtime) I was still not asleep.  Let me tell you, people who call Warcraft crack must have never seen Glee.  Just Sayin’.

However, that was only one reason.  The other reason is that my dad came to visit this past weekend.  I’ve not seen him for five years, so I was very excited about it.  I toted him all over Seattle – to my favorite restaraunts and attractions.  By the time we got home each night I was exhausted.  In a good way.  I had a great visit with him, and because I don’t have a whole lot more to say about that, have a picture of my dad with a butterfly on his head.

On Raiding

We are still trucking along on Heroic Ragnaros.  In fact over 3/4 of our raid time is spent largely on this encounter.  The fight is still incredibly challenging, and we continue to make progress.  The thing with progress on this fight is that sometimes it’s small and sometimes it’s lateral.  But I feel it’s important to recognize that it’s still progress. Read the rest of this entry »

Posted October 4, 2011 by Beruthiel in Brain Dump

Wednesday, er, Wonderings? Marvelous Mynn Edition!   8 comments

It’s not Monday, and I’m a bit behind on everything, so here is my weekly brain dump on, er, Wednesday.  But with good reason!  Which I will tell you about later.  Maybe.

On Raiding

Things are pretty static on this front, without much to report!  Which isn’t necessarily bad.  We snagged a second Baleroc kill (not without some effort, but it wasn’t too painful) and ended up with a good amount of time to flirt with Heroic Ragnaros for the first time.  Except it was a holiday weekend.  And no matter how many times you ask people to give you a heads up on their holiday intentions, it’s always a scramble at the last-minute when raid time comes.

That means we only got one of two nights to focus on him – but were able to go in an 24 man Heroic Cho’gall and Sinestra on Sunday with a few friends and family members tossed in to help.  Alas, she was stingy with her Shard of Woe, which made us all a little sad.  But Monday, with the healers showing that they don’t believe in vacations and free beer, we were able to go in and play around a bit with the big fire kahuna.  And it was a lot of fun.

I’m quite sure that after week 3 the novelty of finding new and interesting ways to wipe on Heroic Rag will wear off, but for now it’s still fresh enough that people seem to be enjoying the progress.  We have approached the fight with the mentality that this will take months to master, and each night we look at the next small step we need to accomplish to get to the end goal – a kill.  Breaking the massive encounter up into smaller pieces of progression markers makes the encounter a little less intimidating for me, and I’d like to think others as well.  While the end result is still a kill, we are trying to make sure that we don’t burn out our guild trying to get there.  Each small achievement is one more step down that path.  And eventually enough small successes will combine themselves into a large success.

We’ll get a kill on our time, and my only goal is to see that happen before the next content patch.  Personally, I’m looking forward to the challenge. Read the rest of this entry »

Posted September 7, 2011 by Beruthiel in Blizzcon, Brain Dump, Deep Thoughts, Hard Modes, Healing, Mynn, Raiding

Monday Musings – 6/7 Heroic and Recruitment Still Sucks Edition   17 comments

Happy Monday, Everyone!  Why is Beru so happy on a Monday?  Well, mostly because after some very long travel I am finally back home.  It feels good to come back home after living in a hotel for 10 days and raiding at the mercy of hotel internet for that period of time.  And believe it or not, it feels good to actually cook a meal.  Eating out really does start to lose its luster after about day four (and the five pounds you add in the time you are gone).  Anyhow, I have some musings to dump out of my head after so much time.  Forgive me if they ramble a bit, but I really need this brain dump.

On Raiding

Raiding has been very good to us as late.  Last week we knocked out Heroic Staghelm.  This week we saw Heroic Baleroc tumble after just two nights of work on him.  Not only that, but the raid team surprised me with a one shot on heroic Staghelm and over 30 seconds left on the enrage timer.  Truth be told, I think everyone was expecting a second Staghelm kill to take a few pulls to shore up and most people were as pleased as I was when we walked in, high on our Baleroc kill, and knocked him out fairly easily.  We had a few deaths at the end of the second set of orbs (I let my co-soaker die :( ) but we pulled it out beautifully.

Heroic Staghelm

Healing Staghelm is a bit odd.  There really isn’t much healing to be done on the fight outside of the orb phases – which are pretty healing heavy.  Other than that it’s mostly just keeping the tank alive and topping up people who took damage from seeds or a leap.  In fact, we have one priest who goes smite spec and DPSes everything but the orb phases.  It hard to tell if I have a good grasp of the best way to heal the fight, as I help to soak an orb, which means I have lower legendary concentration up time.  So it’s hard to tell if I should be doing certain things differently, or if I am doing things properly but see lower healing output than I’d like (comparatively) as a result of lower concentration.  Read the rest of this entry »

Monday Musings – Stay Out of the Fire Edition   2 comments

So, this weekend I saw Cowboys vs. Aliens.  I will come out and say right now that the only redeeming thing about the movie was getting to see Daniel Craig in chaps for two hours.  In fact I’d even go far enough to say that I got more enjoyment out of wiping to Alysrazor all night on Sunday than I did watching that movie.  I mean, to be fair, I really didn’t have high expectations for the movie from the start.  I mean, the concept just seemed…off to me.  Be that as it may, even Brade rated it as “wait for video”!

On Raiding

We have been working on Heroic Alysrazor.  Contrary to what my raid may believe, I find it a really fun fight, but that might just be because I get to run around and cast ALL my heals while doing so.  Feathers own.  Anyhow, we’ve been working on the encounter and have pretty much narrowed a kill down to “everyone surviving”.  If people live, we will win.

We had a 7% wipe last night, after just a night and a half working on the fight.

People have died to any number of things during the fight.  Worms, brushfire, tornadoes, meteors.   You name it, someone in our raid has probably died to it.  Unfortunately, a kill on the encounter will boil down to individual play and survival.  If our raid can live, we will have a kill.  If our raid cannot live, we will wipe.

We are sub 50% after the first burn phase.  We are usually low 30’s for the second burn phase.

As a leader, I feel somewhat impotent on this encounter.  It’s mildly frustrating to have nothing to offer your raid outside of “just please, FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS HOLY, stay out of the bad”.  It’s not something that can be fixed on the macro level of the raid, but rather needs attention at the micro level of each player.  Of course, after a few hours of the fight when I see someone die my inner monologue goes something like this: COME ON! I can bloodly well heal the tank, heal your brushfire eating ass, heal your tornado hitting ass AND still dodge the bad.  WHY IS IT THAT YOU CANNOT DO YOUR JOB AND DO THE SAME?!?!? RAWR!!!

Of course, it’s just a few minutes after having such thoughts that I usually do something stupid and am forced to eat the words of my inner monologue.  I guess that’s karma for you.

I think we will probably spend an hour or so with the fight tonight to see if we can net a kill out of her.  We have a working strategy.  We aren’t failing at the DPS check.  So ultimately, it’s going to be up to each individual to determine our success.  We will either get it done tonight, or we won’t.  I’d like to think that we will – but I watched too many hours of people standing in the bad for it to be a sure thing ;)

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Monday Musings – Ron’s Bogart Edition   1 comment

What?  You aren’t up on your Harry Potter?!  That’s ok, let me educate you a bit so that my title makes a bit more sense.  You see in Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban the students are given an assignment that forces them to face their worst fears.  Ron Weasley’s turns out to be spiders.  Of course, later in the book Ron is met with (you guessed it) giant spiders!  How does this play into my musings?  Well, see if you can guess how I spent most of my time yesterday! ;)

On Raiding

We are currently working on our third Hard Mode encounter of this tier – Beth’tilac.  Last night was our second night of work on the giant widow, and our first full night of attempts.  After a few strategy changes from Thursday night, we managed to work her down to 22%, and are very close to a kill.

Of the hard modes that we’ve done so far, this is the one that I’ve found the healing to be the most intensive.  I am assigned to heal one of the cave/broodling/spiderling DPS and it can definitely be a bit tricky, especially when Beth is spewing all over the raid.  In addition to that, the raid damage in phase 3 is brutal.  I find that my mana bar is plummeting and I am still working out how to manage it a bit more so that I have the resources to push through until the very end of phase 3.  I have a few ideas, but won’t get to exercise them until we get back in there for some more attempts. Read the rest of this entry »

The Straw   58 comments

A while back when Larissa and Tam announced that they were going to close the doors on their respective blogs, they both kind of said the same thing: I just woke up one day and knew I was done.  I often wondered what one thing, one post, one comment, one email, was the catalyst to them walking away.  What was it that, intentionally or unintentionally, ended up being the straw that ultimately broke the camels back.  I’ve always kind of believed that the straw the breaks the proverbial camel’s back would be tiny.  So small that no one would truly realize that it was the thing that caused everything to tumble to the ground. 

When Tam left, I sent him my own private goodbye.  I always felt close to Tam because we entered blogging at the same time, and in those early days often supported each other quite a bit.  Eventually he went left down the road, while I went right, but I always remembered those early days when we kicked at rocks together.  Anyhow, when Tam left one of the things that I shared with him was that I was tired.  And when we responded he told me “I can tell”, he then proceeded to give me some fantastic advice that I have summarily ignored, but that’s really neither here nor there and I digress.

Let’s get back to this camel should we? Read the rest of this entry »


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