A while back I had been reading about druids who where hitting 10k HPS in Ulduar. I remember thinking to myself “how the f…”. So, I did a bit of reading on how we were seeing these astronomical numbers, and I said to myself “I can do that”. I set out on my mission, determined to reach this benchmark and everytime we tried an encounter where these numbers were popping up, I did my damndest to try and reach them.
Every week I creapt a little bit cloaser to that 10k mark, and then I finally hit it. One night a few weeks ago during Steelbreaker attempts in Ulduar, I reveiwed my progress and lo and behold there it was: 10k HPS. Of course, that wasn’t good enough for me, I wanted to do it on a kill. So I kept trying at it, and sure enough the parse from our recent kill netted me this:
Yes, I not only achieved my goal, I blew it out of the water, hitting a whopping 14.7k HPS (and still hitting 10k + in EHPS). I felt extremely proud of myself, happy to have reached a personal benchmark. But the more I thought about it, the more “meh” I kind of feel about it. Where I probably should feel accomplished, I really just feel…not?
How’d I do it? Well, to be perfectly honest with you, it’s a bit cheesy. I also can’t say that there was a whole lot of “skill” involved. Do you know how you heal hard mode Iron Council? Rejuv x5, WG. Rinse and repeat for 6 minutes. Watch GRID to make sure you don’t rejuv over a ticking rejuv, and wildgrowth every time it’s off cooldown. The fight itself is really built to showcase a HoT healer’s strengths. It has a lot of inherent static damage that is not only present for the full 6 minutes of the encounter, but grows stronger as the fight progresses. Almost 100% of my heals counted for something by the end of the fight.
Sure, perhaps not everyone can do that. But honestly, where is the challenge in such a set way of healing? Don’t get me wrong, there were certainly nail biting moments when you had to get the just ressed tank topped off and buffed. Or everytime a fusion punch is about to land. Or when you are at the end of the fight and the enitre raid is taking ~5k damage every few seconds, and your soakers all but need a dedicated healer (beacon of light is OP for this). But still…there wasn’t a whole lot of thought that went into meeting my goal. I litterally went “one, two, three, four, five, WG” in my head . Sometimes it changed and I went “one, two, innervate, swiftmend, four, five, WG”. But really, couldn’t a monkey properly trained have done the job?
I’ve often talked about becoming a rejuv bot, and honestly, that is all this was. Beru being a rejuv bot. Sure, I put up some big numbers, but what was so special about what I did? It wasn’t really anything impressive, was it?
The more I think about it, the less impressed I am with it. I made no “decisions”, no snap judgments that lead to success. I hit some really high numbers by doing a repetitive action on an encounter that favors that action. I reached my goal, I guess, but I have to wonder if it was ever a goal I should have had to begin with. Instead of feeling /flex, I feel more cheated by my accomplishment.
Am I the only one that feels this way? Have you ever reached a goal and then been like…that’s it?